“Low Batteries”

Mommy and Daddy have to confess that their “batteries are low;” Mommy has returned to work and is adjusting to working outside the home again and still pouring her energies into keeping up the house in her remarkable style. She has been preoccupied with worry about Murffee who is so noticeably disabled that it is apparent his time is coming to an end. That truth is tearing both Mommy and Grandmoo to emotional pieces because neither can stand to watch him suffer, and neither can find any comfort for their looming emotional distress in anticipating him no longer being with us as part of our family.

Mommy slept on the floor this afternoon with Murffee as both of you, Bodhi and Buddha, were down for your naps. The courage of loving anyone or one’s pet finds true expression in times of loss. It is a sad time and there is simply no way to avoid that truth.

So, Mommy for a host of reasons is not sleeping well, and not getting enough rest, and it is taking a toll on her---her “batteries are low.” Daddy’s “batteries are low” as well, struggling with self-doubt about how best to be supportive of Mommy. And he has fallen behind on his work, and is distressed about concerns he is not keeping pace with his own expectations of such responsibilities. On top of it all, it is nearing the end of June, the half-way mark of the year, and for some reason (at least for Daddy) it just seems like an exhausting point in our journey into the year 2011.

Our blessings are not lost on either Mommy or Daddy, though, and there is simply no comfort in the world like the love of one’s child---Bodhi and Buddha, you each are a blessing beyond words!

You each seemed to enjoy a good day, though the past day or so you, Buddha, have set a record for poop productionJ Bodhi you were a little cranky a couple of times today, it seems a consequence of perhaps not having enough nap time, or at least quality nap time. You fell asleep when Mommy picked you up from Aunt Ti’s and by the time you got home you resisted lying down for your nap.

Mommy attended her Zumba class though her heart wasn’t really in it, and Daddy had to work this evening and his heart wasn’t really in it either. You both went off to sleep tonight with Mommy tending to you Jude and Daddy tending to you Bodhi, and both of us benefitted more than you either will come to understand until many years later in your lives. Sometimes all that can best be said is simply said best with a hug. And you can both be assured, your hugs are magic and you both “speak” it so eloquently.

Juders you decided to try and cook Mommy and Daddy a meal to return home to :)

"Chef Buddha" ;)
"Say what Sister Kelly?"  "Mommy lets me cook!"

Rotten to the core! :)

What can Momma say?  You are apparently licking the chair hee/hee  apparently you didn't get enough to eat at dinner time :0

Mommy and Mr. Murff took a nap together on the floor, since Mr. Murff can no longer make it up the stairs.  We were awakened by Sister Kelly, who got a good laugh seeing Mommy spooning Mr. Murff, and apparently my blouse didn't cover Jude's milk bottles, so she had quite the disturbing view :0

FINALLY... Back To Work!
 Today's progress on Vincent's home :)

Flowers blooming in our yard today :)